am i vocally dyslexic or just tone def?

for xmas my roommate got me a karaoke machine, nothing outrageous, just a small simple machine that hooks up to the tv or a monitor, it's very similar to an old school cd player, in fact that's pretty much all it is, but with mic inputs and cd-g reading capbilities.

the guy she was seeing at the time gave me a binder full of cd-gs burnt from the internet, it's an odd selection of songs but it's a damn good start of a collection. so needless to say i've been spending a lot of time singing and dancing in my living room lately. i've been really trying to find my own voice, and realizing that i'm really not very good. my roommate said to me one day "you almost sound like you're tone def, but you make it work." which totally doesn't surprise me, i've actually thought this before myself. it's like i know how i should sing something, but when it comes out of my throat it goes off in the opposite direction. is it possible to be vocally dyslexic? that would explain my frequent verbal diarrhea, my gibberish non-senseical ramblings that often occur, one of the many reasons i'm so socially awkward, the fear of carrying on a conversation when some days nothing i say comes out properly or in the correct order.

it's hard to feel confident finding my own voice when my own voice is so hard to find. there are days my voice feels stuck in the back of my skull, stifled and locked at the top of my spine, escaping through my face and nose and not my throat, but then i remember to breath and let the sound start in my guts, flow through my lungs and past my lips...but even then it doesn't always sound good, unless i'm singing guns n roses, then i totally rule.

"i can hold a note a long time, hell, i can hold a note forever, but after a while, it's just noise..."

-Krevlornswath of the Deathwok Clan