i've been spending too much time on teenage girls tumblrs, and looking at pictures of cats in cute costumes.

i've been smoking more weed than i have in a long while and i've started writing lyrics to songs based entirely on buffy and angel episodes. if only i had a piano...and still knew how to play one... then i'd be on to something.

being unemployed is startng to become boring, and also scary. it would be a different story if i still felt like i was a part of something bigger, but sadly i'm not part of anything anymore.

i have all the time in the world now to accomplish something with my life, but it feels like someone has hit the pause button on me. i don't know how i can still be so afraid of failure, since it seems so far it's all i've known.